When something is wrong or "off" in my world, I expect the ocean to become calm and listen to me. I expect wars to cease and kings to pay their dues. When I'm not myself nothing else should be itself. It's selfish, I know, but it's the way I am. If you are one of those kings or if you are my ocean, I expect you to listen to my stupidity. Maybe I don't want your advice, maybe I do; but either way, I have put the burden of importance on you. When I need you, I really fucking need you. I can't stand to be second to anything, especially when things aren't in their places...
But you have to understand that this is not because I place myself higher than anyone else. I don't have these ridiculously high expectations because I'm better than everyone, I have these expectations because I hope that I am someone's ocean. I expect the world and back because I would give the world and back.
Though I suppose I shouldn't expect so much because I tend to find myself alone. Yet, that is my doing as well. I kind of square myself off and expect my important people to feel that something is wrong; like everyone's "Passíon senses" should be tingling. Okay, maybe not that dramatic, ha ha.
You understand where I am going with this, yes? If not, I'm basically getting to the roots of my thinking. The main thought when I'm in a lowly mood, such as this, is that everyone who I find important should care that something is bothering me. It's just because I care a lot about my important people, and I hope they will be there for me like I am always there for them.
If I love you,
take care to love me back.
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