Bowling

     So as you can see, my idea to turn that extremely long skirt into a mini-dress was a success! I think it really suits me and is now a pretty piece of clothing rather than a tacky eyesore! (Although my watch doesn't really match, lol.) I want to wear it already but I don't know when it'll be warm enough to sport it without freezing, or  what shoes to wear and other related items. I'll probably post another photograph when I do decide what to go with it.
     Anyhow, today has been another successful day. I've learned so much about myself, like that I tend to enlighten people and make them happy because my happiness is contagious; which in turn, makes me even more happy! :3 It's like a vicious cycle of awesome-tastic happiness! I made great tips for it being a Wednesday night and even did some shopping after work. I finally bought this purse that I've been dying to have, which says a ton because I am not a purse girl. I've had the same mini-backpack for about six years and we've been through a lot together; shows, Warped Tour, middle school, high school, life in general... mannnn!
     The ball of life is rolling down the center of the lane for me right now; I'm real close to hitting all of those pins. We'll find out if I get a strike by next fall, when I *hopefully* go to school at the Southwest University of Visual Arts in Tuscon, Arizona.

Ohsojolly

     I don't know what it has been about today, but I'm in a great mood. I spent today mostly alone, baking cookies to prepare for when the family comes for Christmas. I also went shopping at Goodwill and got pair of shoes, a skirt (that I'm gonna use as a dress and will post photos of), and a shirt that reminded me of Kasey. My last stop before returning to my grandparents' was Target. At Target, I purchased the gag gift for Papa and Heather, some busybones for Wrigey and Lillyperl, a beanie for John, some more sprinkles for sugar cookies, and some leggings for myself. I really wanted to buy this bag, but I decided to wait until tomorrow, after work.

     I guess I'm feeling all jolly and christmasy already.(: My grandparents and I just finished watching The Velveteen Rabbit, which is an amazing movie! If you haven't seen it, I recommend it. It's actually based off a book so you know it's going on my reading list.(: I'm so excited for this Christmas even though I'm obligated to work, I'm finally going to be able enjoy the company of most of the family; it'll be Emry's first Christmas as well! (She's my cousin Desiree's little girl.) I wish my jolliness was more contagious because my mom really needs to feel it. I mean, even though we don't agree on most things, she shouldn't make me feel bad for wanting to get her a Christmas gift. Her words were, "Don't get me anything for Christmas because I don't have money to get you something in return." Which I think is not in the spirit of the holidays, and anyway, it's not like she gets me anything when I'm away lol. I've accepted it.(x

     Also in jolly news, I have a date on Sunday! Interesting, right? Just another one of life's twists! I don't really know the guy except that he was a customer at ihop that I gave my number, but he's cute and funny so that's a start lol. This, of course, doesn't mean that I don't love Robert and such. It's just one of those things, ya know? We'll see how everything pans out.(:

     One final thing, the blog tittle is a play on words... sort of. Ha ha. Because in Spanish oso (oh-so) means bear. So there you have it.(x  Oh, I lied; two things. I've been having really intense dreams that are like "whhhaaaaa???" Maybe I'll blog about them later. Goodnight and happy holidays!~

I don't even know what to title this

     I gave myself sometime and I'm no longer angry at the female gender. I just feel like I'm staring at my reflection in a puddle, not enjoying what I see. I get frustrated with myself and stomp in the puddle, only to get myself all dirty and hate myself more. I don't really know what I'm doing, with anything. I work, I eat, I sleep, I visit Mankie... Rinse and repeat. That's my life in a nutshell, but things are so much more complicated than that.
     I have a lot of people on my mind and something almost always seems to go wrong when I'm happy. I'm beginning to feel like I've betrayed myself and become the "other girl" once more, but I was unaware this time around. I hope that's not the case but I feel like I fall second to... well everyone. I'm no one's girlfriend and I don't really feel like I'm anyone's friend here... Kasey's like the only person who feels the same way about me as I feel about her. It's not like it used to be though. Everything changes, regardless of whether we want it to or not.
     I guess I've just been fishing in a fish-less pond, it's no wonder that I've lost a few hooks and caught nothing. I guess I ought to find a better pond, huh? But I'm too stupid to leave, I'm too happy with my unhappiness... if that makes sense.

It's how I feel.

Who knew it was so simple?

     Not me, that's for sure! I wish I had know sooner, ha ha. But I'm happy now, excited even! Things are back to normal and I have travels and visits to look forward too! Eeeep! :3 There's Christmas and then January, then spring break...! La la la, I couldn't be happier... well I'm sure there's always room for more happiness, but I'm in a really FANTASTIC place right now. I'm much better than I was this morning, sitting in my car while I waited for my grandparents to get home, lol.

     And while trying to find out what all the hype was about for Google+, I stumbled on my new stick figure comic obsession... (I've read all the Cyanide and Happiness entries... except future ones that I read daily.) You can find these comics here: http://xkcd.com/

So cute.

:3

It.

Warms.

My.

Heart.

(Like pot roast!)

xD

My heart knew it was you

     I had been half asleep for about an hour, I could still hear my music perfectly. That's when I heard the text message tone from my iPhone. My heart pounded heavily and told my brain that it was you, they just knew it was you. I scrambled for the phone and saw "Papa Bear<3" appear on the screen. At one point I felt like my heart would tear a hole in my chest, but luckily it gradually beat slower and without as much force.
     I opened the message and it wasn't awful, but it wasn't anything like I was expecting. It's just one of those things that make me hate girls, and as a result I deleted my facebook completely. It'll be gone in two weeks time, I believe.
     I'm still texting Robert as I type this, but I just had to get on here. It makes me feel better. Plus, I had to write about my heart nearly exploding. It was something that I've never felt before. Neopets is down so I guess I'm not gonna do my dailies... see you around fellow bloggers.

P.S. If you don't like me, don't waste your time trolling on me. It doesn't do anything for you and it sure as hell does nothing for me, except make me lose tons of respect for you.