I've been meaning to blog for a while because there's been a lot on and off of my mind lately. ...It feels good to finally have the time to sit here and let my fingers touch the keys.(:

Well first off, enjoy some photos!

I saw this video on Youtube,

where the girl rolls her hair, like so,

and mine came out pretty good. :3

 Side view.

Entire outfit.

 Face shot.

The very next day.

I like how I can change my style over night.

(:

A customer left me a tip in Pi.

:D

 How I proved to Roger that I was gonna visit him!

xD

 In my Mankie's front yard.

So pretty;<3

 The dress and shoes I'm gonna wear to Robert's prom!

I'm so excited!

:D

But I'm still not sure whether I should wear glasses... 

...or not!

     Anyhow, I found this notebook I used to write in all the time back in 2008 and dang! Wasn't that something? It's odd how much I haven't changed. I mean, I was a lot more childish then (which makes sense) but overall I've always been who I am today.

     It really surprised me to read so much about Joey because I can look back at our relationship and feel absolutely nothing. I've completely forgotten the feeling of being head over heels in love with him. I think I remember but then I know that I'll never know that feeling how I used to know it, which isn't necessarily a bad thing but I really don't care.

     Speaking of Joey though, we got in an argument a couple of weeks ago about S, Joey's girl-to-be, and why our relationship failed. If you follow my twitter, you might have noticed some of my tweets being about some one copying me; those were about S. As you can infer, she was essentially trying to be as Passíon as possible. (And I can assure you that I'm not being cocky.)

     It started with S's bio which was way too similar to my "I breathe, I blog, and I play neopets. Woo for the weirdos." S's bio was something like, "I live. I love. I blog. I laugh. I play random neopets. Yay for the unordinary." It freaked me out... and that was just the beginning.

     Eventually she tweaked her bio a bit, but it was still essentially the same thing. She followed my account but she never retweeted any of my tweets; instead, she would type the same tweet but change a few words. -_-" For example I tweeted: "If I can't tell someone everything, why bother telling them anything?" Then a while later, S tweeted, "Why bother telling some one anything, if there's no trust?" You can see how that is obviously derived from my initial statement, yes?

     Then comes the good part! The point where she changes her profile to look almost identical to mine, she posts a photo of the letters that Joey and his family wrote to her, and then after Joey and I get into the argument, her friend D goes on her twitter and says, "My name is D and ive been using my friends account and have been pretending to be her. Sorry." and "Worst thing a person can do is go behind her best friends back and post her private life where it doesnt belong." 

     Meh. Stupidity. I guess I should be flattered to the extent of which she tried to portray me and then give a terrible front. I'm just easily creeped out, I suppose.

     Other than that minor upset in my road, I'm doing quite swell! I'm really excited because I'm going to be seeing Robert soon! In two weeks actually! (And then three weeks after that!) I don't think I was this excited to go to prom when I was in high school.(x 

     At work, if I smile out of nowhere my co-workers are like, "Yes Passíon, WE KNOW you're excited to see Robert!" And I really am, I've never had him over at my house before! I'm set on having everything perfect. Teehee. :3

Life is good and there's so much more ahead! Until next time~!

There's hope yet

     I think I've been right all along; I'm stubborn at times, but this time I feel like I'm right. I've never been more determined than I am right at this instant. It's such an amazing feeling...
     I feel it in my heart and in my mind, they're finally in agreement! There's no "possible scenarios" playing in between them or one covering up the beliefs of the other. My mind and heart are at peace with one another, and we're preparing for what lies ahead.
     My plans aren't changing, I'll be out of here in a matter of months. I'm excited and it's almost impossible to contain this feeling! But you'll see world. You will see!

Math

     Do you remember the last few minutes I spent with you? I'm crying like I was then, but at that time, I buried myself in your arms. In between my sobs, I apologized for crying and I told you that I loved you. I asked you to thank your mom for everything because she had done so much for us, I really appreciated everything. We kissed and I shuffled off towards the airport security... that was in November.

     We haven't seen each other since.

.....and I fucking miss you.

But I can't be your friend.

 Because I wouldn't know where to draw the line.

So long my honey, goodbye my dear

      "You were everywhere, I swear." I've uttered that line to you so many times before, but it's always true. It's always true. Maybe it's just my mind putting you in places you didn't belong because you've always been hiding in the depths of my brain.
     Just this past Tuesday, you were everywhere. I don't remember every little thing that I saw that reminded me of you, but the one that hit me hardest was this store called Paper Bear. At a quick glance, I read "Papa Bear," one of my nicknames for you, and had to take a second look to make sure that I wasn't seeing things. But of course, I was. And though it was subconsciously, I placed you there.
     I thought about you today and other past relationships, trying to find the point from which things turned from fantastic to terrible. Then I thought about how much I can't stand the thought of being your friend; I couldn't understand how you could be so cool about it, when it saddens me so much.
     Just then I realized what a hypocrite I was to be so taken aback by your desire to remain friends. After all, I had done the exact same thing you're doing to me to someone who was in the position I'm in. I felt like a complete jerk to have broken up with someone, found someone else, and expected the person I just broke up with to be my friend. I finally understand not being friends with your exes, FINALLY.
     Well, you're happy now and I'm happy for you, but I can't continue to be in your life right now. I can't be friends with someone who I put so much into to have none of that reciprocated. It's selfish, I know, but it's only to better myself. To make myself stronger than yesterday. To make room for someone who will share the same feelings. You didn't love me like I loved you, and I can accept that. I just can't be your friend anymore. Maybe later when I can accept that you're off in your own world and I'm here in mine, but for now goodbye.

Gonna Get Along Without You

(By: She & Him)

"Uh huh, hmm hmm
Gonna get along without you now
Uh huh, hmm hmm
Gonna get along without you now

You told me I was the neatest thing
You even asked me to wear your ring
You ran around with every girl in town
You didn't even care if it got me down

Uh huh, hmm hmm
Gonna get along without you now
Mhm mhm, hmm hmm
Gonna get along without you now

Got along without you before I met you
Gonna get along without you now
Gonna find somebody who is twice as cute
'Cause you didn't want me anyhow

You told everybody that we were friends
But this is where our friendship ends
'Cause all of a sudden you even changed your tune
You haven't been around since way last June

Uh huh, hmm hmm
Gonna get along without you now
Got along without you before I met you
Gonna get along without you now

So long my honey, goodbye my dear
Gonna get along without you now

Uh huh, hmm hmm
Gonna get along without you now
Got along without you before I met you
Gonna get along without you now

So long my honey, goodbye my dear
Gonna get along without you now"

SDB

     Please excuse my tardiness, but this post is about my extremely fantastic friend Bryant, or as I refer to him on my blog, SDB. SDB is awesome. He's put up with a lot of my shenanigans and given me a lot of good advice (that I usually completely ignored, lol). He is a part of my Carl (car) since he was the previous owner. We've spent a good chunk of the 2010-2011 year together doing some of the most random things, as depicted on the following photos of the napkin I drew for him! SDB is great and I'm lucky that he stuck around even though I've made terrible decisions and made him quite furious at me. He's the best of the best and I'm glad he's still my friend right now, and hopefully tomorrow too! I love you Bryant, Brad, SDB. :D

This is the full monty, above.

All others are just closer photos.

(: