I'm really selfish but I still do nice things for other people, that's beside the point.
Today was pretty good. I participated in a field trip that took some random students of Salem High School to a courthouse and a jail. It was a fairly interesting trip and I will never for get the convicted felon/ trustee that spoke with us. I don't remember his name but his wife just had thier baby boy on September 27th. His son only gets to see his dad on the video visitation that is provided by the jail, which I find tragic. The guy really seems like a nice guy who was just trying to make it in the world... but I digress.
I felt pretty useless during the latter part of the day, though. I feel like I opened up just to get shut down. It's not really a big deal but I don't really know how to explain how I feel. I knew that this was going to happen but just not this soon. I talked to Charmander today and he listened.
It's like I'm in a slump that I can't get over, like there's an impassable hill and all I want to do is climb it... but my knees are too weak. And I try to "motivate" myself by telling me that I can get over the hill, when in reality I can't. Or maybe I won't let myself. Either way, that hill is there. It makes me so upset that I can't do the things I want because of the way I let things affect me. I mean seriously, look at me! I'm such a mess... Well I'm not so sure you can see it as much as me but it's true. I'm just a person wrapped up in emotion and distress. And on top of that is a thin layer of plastic wrap labeled happiness. It covers every inch of me but is so easily pierced, so easily damaged. I guess they were right when they called me 'fragile' in middle school...
This has just shown me how terribly I handle myself and the predicments I get into. And how selfish I am with the things I expect of the people I surround myself with. I think I need something new, I think I need a change. I'm breaking my own heart and it's a shame. I'm going to go bury my head in This Side of Paradise.
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Timeline- Sunday night: Drive to dinner with said keys. Arrive home with them. Monday- No need for truck use, so no touching of keys is involved. Tuesday- Get home, cant find keys, grab spare because i need to get to track. Get home, shower, dad gets home, gets call from bank, said someone is overcharging on my mini card. cancel card, notice keys are gone, and probable stolen yesterday because one charge was yesterday. Explain said timeline to dad...both confused when and where they were stolen, still not sure...mom not home, wait in fear.
Ahh, that is quite a predicment. What will she say? And speaking of your father, one of the attornies of the Common Wealth (state of Virginia) reminded me of him, just older. And I honestly can say I know nothing of your mother, so her reaction to said keys is unimaginable to me.
Well it went better then thought... She didnt blow up at me, she agrees with us. Our theory is that some saw me leave, went in our house, heard mom doing w/e, just grabbed keys and we've added gym membership card too, and bolted. Probably didnt take mom's keys because they dont look like keys since its an electronic ignition starter, so no actual key is used. Theory is highly probable
Well that sounds not too bad, her reaction. No the situation. I hope whoever the fool is gets thier fair share.
Lol ya...gonna file a report with police and see if insurance will pay to rekey my car and such
Justice, lol. You schould have called yourself justice. xD Well I'm off to sleep. Goodnight, talk to to-morrow.
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