Shake the feeling

     I don't know. I really don't. I'm at a point where I feel like that's that and I'm gone. I feel like maybe I'm wasting my time because I've already served my purpose in that matter... but I don't want to be done. I'm hanging on to what little I'm given and I just will not let go. I mean, it is a new year and for it to start with bad dreams and being sick... I haven't any idea of where to begin or to end. (Possibly, preferably not.)

     All I know is that I have to keep trucking forward; regardless of whether things change or not. So I'll put on that stupid face that I have one over to the right and continue with my life, because even if the things that mean/meant so much to me at one point in time can still bring me down, then I'm not really progressing with the new year... if that makes sense. I guess I'm just making things a dozen times more complicated than they have to be because that 's the way I am. Complicated is my middle name... Well actually it's Neftali but it's just as complicated. (Yes, laugh!)

     Eh, I kind of feel like I'm just rambling about nothing so I guess I'll say goodnight. Oh and that's Chris in the background. He's pretty cool except he's leaving IHOP for Sam's Club. What a weenie!

P.S. Pawlie wants me to go to bed, hence the photo below. Goodnight everyone, and may 2012 bring the best for us all.

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