Monday, July 25, 2011

Oh, the places you'll go

     Some days I just sit around thinking about how things could have been different, depending on my location. For instance, if I had moved to Virginia with my dad back in 2008,  if I would have gone back to Texas last summer, if we had moved back to Japan in 2002... things would have been impossibly different. So different, in fact, that I cannot even begin to fathom where I would be in this exact instance.
     The people who are in my life currently would have just been faces amongst the crowds of faces I see everyday, everywhere. It tears me apart to think of losing any of the people I hold so dear to me, but even more so to think that there could have been a possibility that I never met any of them in the first place. But I've come to the realization that if I had been different places in my life I wouldn't even notice the lack the people who are in my life now. I wouldn't have known them like I know them now, I probably would have had other people in place of them... It's an awful thought but it has always been a possibility, and will continue to be as long as decisions will have to be made.
      Then comes the matter of who I would be, would I be the same lovely little Passíon that I know today? With all I've gone through, I can answer with a  a definite "no." If my circumstances had been different, my experiences and life lessons would have be extremely different. I don't think that I would have had identical situations as I have had in this path that I've chosen; they might have been similar but I wouldn't have learned things the way I have up to this point in my life.
     Basically, I wouldn't have my life any other way because I love the people who take part in my life, I love the places I've been, the person I am, the ambitions I hold. There will be difficult decision to make throughout life but we can only choose, and hope we chose right.
Just remember to make your mark;
no regrets.
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