"Christmas"

     I've been thinking about so much lately; my life currently, my life in six months, my life in a year, the people in my life, the events to come, and so on and so forth. I'm sure you get the gist, but most of my thoughts today were about what I want and what I have, and what I can do to assure that I have both.
     You see, I think of myself as an anxious child, forever awaiting Christmas day even though it's only mid-July. I know what it is I want and I've already had a glimpse of my gifts, but I can't do anything more. I cannot open my toys let alone play with them; so what am I to do? Well, there is only one thing I can do---wait.
     Ah, but if it were that easy! If I wasn't such a selfish child on the inside, I could easily wait for years but I'm not. I'm impatient and selfish because I want to have what I want to have, because I need what I need. And yet, I can wait despite myself. The only thing that will keep me between what I want is myself, and I must prevent that.
     I want my HappilyEverMerryChristmasNewYear. I have to wait just a little while longer to open those gifts and pretend to be surprised. Six months isn't a long time to wait and I'm sure I can wait it. I just need a load of self-discipline and motivation. I'll be the child that decides to eat three pieces of Halloween candies a day rather than the whole bag.

     Cheers to patience and love for the child within me. I will not suffer the stomach ache of my neighbor.