I guess the beginning is as good of a place to start as any and my Virginia trip started with packing the night before. I left a few things here by mistake, like Kaden and Kasey's mom's Christmas presents but eh, I'll mail them sometime. The next morning one of my best friends, Chance; my ex co-worker, Chris; and Chris's friend, Troy saw me off at the airport. It was very sweet and fun and all that jazz. Chris and I have been talking-ish so I gave him a kiss and told him, "not yet" when he implied asking me if I wanted to be his girlfriend. I went about my business and slept 90% of both of my flights. It. Was. EPIC.
When I got home, in Virginia, I hung out with my best friend in the whole wide world, Miss Kasey Smith. We spent a lot of time going through the boxes that held everything that used to make my room, my room. The boxes were terribly packed but Kasey and I managed to condense everything so I would be able to have them sent over to Texas. There was a very sad moment when I reread a letter that used to be the reason I woke up in the morning, it was from Robert. (And if know me or have been following my blog for a while, then you should know how much Robert means/meant to me.)
I tried hard not to cry when I read "When you're ready just say, 'Okay Robert. I'm yours.'" But of course I failed. Let me get off topic for just a few seconds so that the reason that sentence made me cry makes more sense.
Remember my last blog post about being forgotten? Well yeah, I typed that out literally a few hours before Robert told me that he had found interest in someone else. How... strange the mind works, eh? All that means is that there is no Robert and Passíon in the forseeable future "and that's okay." Now we return to your regularly scheduled blog!I read that knowing that he was thinking of someone else these days and not me; it broke my heart because I had invested so much in making us work, in waiting because I love him, in every single thought... and he kind of just left me there. Suitcase in hand, ready to move in, and when I open the door he's having a jolly good time without me. It hurt. A lot.
I texted him, "Okay Robert. I'm yours." To which he replied, "...|:" I tried to sleep that night but couldn't. I needed to talk to him because it wasn't fair. It wasn't fair for him to almost drop me because I had a date and expect me to be accepting of his new found interest.
I called him and told him I needed to play magician again, that I needed to be away for a bit in order to be more accepting of him liking someone else. He understood and I felt better the next day. I guess it was just one of those things I needed to say aloud for it to flee from my mind. We're friends again and that's fine and dandy, but it's kind of what got me into the sterotypical male attitude mood that I'm in now; which I will address as it comes in sequence.
Day number two I went to school to have lunch with Kasey and her friends. I had a pretty nice conversation with the oh-so-hottttt Mr. Ferris. He ended up giving me his number and we planned on having lunch... but sadly that didn't turn out. *Sigh* I saw a lot of people that I've been missing while I was at school and I even managed to not see those who I didn't want to see. (WINNING!) I ended up going home after trying to get in touch with Zach and failing.
Zach had just come down to Virginia Beach from Suffolk to visit... me mostly. A while later we ended up hanging out and ending up driving around with a bunch of people I hadn't seen since July. It was not what I expected since I was gonna hang out with Zach, but it was fun nonetheless. After the car ride my good ol' pal Bryant or as I have referred to him in past posts, SDB, took Kasey and I to the mall.
On the way we talked of things such as the hottttttttness of Ferris, the memories associated with streets we passed, Trevor Demasco (because I saw him on the way to the mall and yelled, "HEY! THAT WAS TREVOR DEMASCO!"), and work-related relationships. The mall was fun even though it was just a mall, and SDB was a good sport about helping Kasey and I shop even though our main purpose for going to the mall was Chik-fil-a.
At Chik-fil-a there was a very funny cashier named Nick, who helped us. He forgot a lot of our stuff so I wrote him a note and left him my number. In the note, I told him that he forgot my toy and my french fries, but that it was okay because Kasey said, "he was distracted by your beauty." It was pretty cool and I even got to take a picture of him with on of my four disposable cameras.
Braynt took Kasey and I back home and he changed so he could go P.T. with the Marine recruiters and whatnot. After he left Kasey and I went to hang out with John, Jenay, and the rest of the badasses and John's house. (I'll have pictures when I get my camera developed, promise!)
Nick texted me later and we all ended up going to the oceanfront, one of my favorite places in the world. I got on Kasey's longboard and hurried to the building that Zach and I conquered instead of going to prom. I got there long before anyone else and I just stared in awe, just last June this building was nothing but bones. I got sad and attack-hugged Zach when he and the others arrived. I cried into his chest and said, "That's not our building anymore." "Awh," he replied, saddened, "If I had a million dollars I would have bought it and told them to stop construction." We stayed like that for a little bit longer, before returning to the harsh reality that our building was no longer our building and would never be our building in the same sense again.
I withdrew myself from his arms and wiped my tears away; the time to be sad was over and the fun was about to commence. We didn't do a lot but make some hot tea at 7/11 and loiter for a good thirty minutes before we got shooed off the premises. We took some more photos and enjoyed the company of each other until a little before midnight, seeing as most of us needed to be home by then. I said my adieus and made my way into slumber.
...I'll continue this post mañana as I need a bit of slumber.
Chou;<3
