Sugar-coated

     Yesterday, Kkarnage spoke to me for the first time in a few months. It made me happier than you can imagine. I was beginning to believe that all my love and care for her was in vain. I thought that she honestly didn't give two damns about me or what I wanted to tell her. All I really want is to keep her safe. I want to bring her home with me and teach her how to be right, even though I don't know how to be right myself. I want to take care of her and give her something that I can't give myself. If I could, I'd drop everything for her.
     If I could. I find myself saying that a lot and I suppose I can but it's not how I want to do anything. Dropping everything is so unrealistic, it's just a lie to make people feel secure. Yet, when it comes right down it, it's just about to damnedest thing one can tell another.

Would you take a bullet for me?
Honestly, probably not. I'm not brave enough to jump in front of a bullet, even if it was to save your life. I mean, put yourself in the same situation. You would want to but at the same time, we humans have such a  strong desire to live... If I was invincible, I'd take a bullet for you.

     Today was a sickly day. Yet I can't stand being useless when I'm sick, it's like a terrible curse. I cleaned the bathroom, the laundry, the stove, some of the interior of my car, my closet, my room, and I tried to clean the wall. I can't just sleep anymore, I don't know why. I really wish I could, I just wish I could. Weird though, it's only twenty 'til seven and I'm really fatigued. I might eat something but I know I want some tea... and some sleep.
     Dream with me again. I want to pretend someone is keeping me warm, although my room is as hot as the summer. Dream with me again, I don't want to be alone and delirious. Watch me sleep and keep me safe and warm. Please, dream with me.

"If you can't sleep I'll be there in your dreams. I'll be there in your dreams if you can't sleep at all..."

Take your own and I'll take mine

     Hypocrisy at it's best is found in the warm loving arms of those you hold the closest. I do nothing to make you make me do things on my own. I do a lot on my own, without your help. Without anyone's help, geez doesn't that make sense? Doing things on my own, by myself. Yes, it makes a whole lot of sense. If you ask me to do something that is not my duty to do, I'll do it. A lot of times, I'll do it without being asked. But don't tell me to take care of your business and mine. Don't make it my fault that you're not taking your own.

"Can you walk the dogs."
"Yes."
Both go outside.
"Why am I putting the plates on your car? It's your car; you should be doing this."
"These are your dogs."
They sure as hell aren't mine. Two Jack Russells are definitely not my dogs of choice. Dogs aren't really on my good side anymore.
You go in and ignore me.
I walked the dogs and put the plates on my car. You're welcome.

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     The world map to my right is falling to it's demise. It just dropped a little bit further and startled me. I suppose this is a sign. I'm sorry. It's long gone now.

i love you

dear passion you are like the missing piece of my pie. you make me smile over alot of of stupid shit. so right now i am watching chase hug you and it looks funny because its you. i love to laugh at you. its great. please take a seat  you said... ON MY DICK... that would be something chase would say but all he did was just stare at you. (:

hello  kitty

thats right  i just put a random picture in this blog 

well i love you passion 

hugs with no kisses

 

                                        love your jigglypuff,

                                              kasey smith

God makes wishes too

Last night:
     I've seen snow before, but I've never seen the actual action of snowing. I went outside and walked around as the flurries of snow fell from the sky. I smiled; I felt as though God was blowing a giant dandelion puff over the city. I wonder what he wished for, eternal life?

This morrow:
     What little snow remained on the ground from last night is now melting away, sadly. Sigh. It's suppose to snow again today. Hopefully it stays with me, well the ground really. So I thought, does this mean God's wish doesn't come true?