Kasey and other things

     This photo above is of my best friend in the universe, Kasey Smith, and her boyfriend Mista Blaire (James), Below is my drawing of them. I apologize for not being able to draw males as well as females. T^T

     In a few short days I will be making my way to Virginia to visit my lovely best friend, my dad; Heather; and the dogs, and the rest of my friends.(: It's pretty exciting and all that jazz but there's so much more going on than that and I don't even know where to begin.

     I got mad because a co-worker decided to take some extacy before I took him home from work. I was really... taken aback. It made me sad to see him do something other that marijuana... but whatever I guess. I can't save everyone's lives. *Sigh* I wish getting "fucked up" wasn't cool because as much as they say everyone's not doing it, we know that they're wrong. The percentage of kids to young adults that abuse drugs is at a rise. 

     I've watched one of my closest friends change into someone so desperate and terrible... it just makes me sad to think that I've lost my friend not only to a girl, but the life of trying to get high at every turn possible. I don't know. I guess being one of the few that still don't do anything just makes every drug seem that much worse. 

I need to turn this post around.... behold! The largest omlette made at our IHOP and the cutest Cutie brand orange!

o.O

 :3

 I miss my bess frann

<|3

The difference between dreams and future reality

"They're not dreams, they're just not reality yet." -Passíon Neftali Leon

     I came up with that quote today when talking to co-workers about relationships and our futures. I was thinking about how I plan to go to SUVA in Tuscon and then I realized, that's no pipe dream of mine; that's reality to come. It's what I WILL do not just what I want to do. To me, dreams are something that change until they get to the point where you just know that they will be your future. I know where I'm going in life and I know what I want out of it too, all that's left is for it to actually happen.
     I'm so determined for my plans to unravel, even if they come out differently than expected. My quote applies to love as well; because even though I don't know how that will unfold for me, I know who I want and I'm not let them go without a fight or three-hundred.

     I've motivated myself so much that I bought a cork board and have started putting things that will be part of my reality to come. (I'll post of photo of it once I have it a little more filled out.) It's a way that I can visualize what I want and bring it to me ten-thousand fold, which is something mentioned in The Secret; an awesome read and a life changing book. But things are looking up despite my lack of certain things and certain people. I can be happy on my own knowing that I have an awesome reality to look forward to.

I Googled "night sky", chose this image, then edited it in picnik and added my quote.

It's at the center of my cork board.

(:

     Man, that is one awesome quote. I'd love it even if it weren't my own. Goodnight bloggers!~

Long talks with co-workers

     Chris didn't work today but he came to hang out because we were wayyy dead. I was training Ayman's brother to be a server. (I don't know how to spell or say his name, sorry!) Anyhow, Ayman's brother and I were having some nice conversation and then Chris and I started talking about where we are with the people that we love, and how sometimes we freak out when a short period of time feels like an eternity.
     He made a good point when he said that doubt is just the universe testing your desire of the person who receives your love. I was taken by surprise by that because everything has to be so much more complicated than that for me. It really makes sense though! I mean, I know that Robert's world can't revolve around me at this point because he has so much more to focus on, and the universe is testing to see whether or not I can handle the wait without him; which I can and WILL.

     In other news, I finished my table lamp, it's pretty awesome! I used glow-in-the-dark paint but when I tried taking a picute of it, it didn't show up. (Sorry guys, I really wanted to show y'all!) But enjoy what photos I do have to share!

 Instead of using computer paper,

 I found a clear box and traced the flowers off my bedspread again.

 I cut them around their outlines and taped them onto the lamp.

Then I went around the stencils with glow-in-the-dark fabric paint.

I did the insides of the flowers freehand.

 This is the lamp unlit.

 This is the lamp lit, lol.

This is what I had to cure my sickness today.

A hot cup of Earl Gray with cinnamon; sugar; and honey,

a glass of orange juice,

and Chicken and rice soup.

NomNomNom!

:3

     Also, you'll notice the new Twitter box and follow by e-mail over there to the right. If you follow my blog but don't have a blogger (and don't want one) there are two new ways for you to stay updated! I will post a link from this blog on twitter just as I finish posting. So keep in touch, kids! Love yah!

Shake the feeling

     I don't know. I really don't. I'm at a point where I feel like that's that and I'm gone. I feel like maybe I'm wasting my time because I've already served my purpose in that matter... but I don't want to be done. I'm hanging on to what little I'm given and I just will not let go. I mean, it is a new year and for it to start with bad dreams and being sick... I haven't any idea of where to begin or to end. (Possibly, preferably not.)

     All I know is that I have to keep trucking forward; regardless of whether things change or not. So I'll put on that stupid face that I have one over to the right and continue with my life, because even if the things that mean/meant so much to me at one point in time can still bring me down, then I'm not really progressing with the new year... if that makes sense. I guess I'm just making things a dozen times more complicated than they have to be because that 's the way I am. Complicated is my middle name... Well actually it's Neftali but it's just as complicated. (Yes, laugh!)

     Eh, I kind of feel like I'm just rambling about nothing so I guess I'll say goodnight. Oh and that's Chris in the background. He's pretty cool except he's leaving IHOP for Sam's Club. What a weenie!

P.S. Pawlie wants me to go to bed, hence the photo below. Goodnight everyone, and may 2012 bring the best for us all.

<3

Double Christmas trees, life, and apologies

Pawlie enjoying Christmas

     We'll start off with the apologies. I'm really sorry about not blogging, to both you, the follower, and myself. My mother hid the cord to the desktop and my brother hid my laptop and I don't really like blogging from my phone... so I sincerely apologize! I really have a lot to tell you all so bear with what should be a long post.(:
     Christmas was great! My cousins came down from Dallas; it was nice to have everyone together again for Christmas since it had been quite some time. I didn't get much for Christmas and I don't mind that at all, I was just happy that I could give to everyone and make their Christmas even better. Speaking of Christmas, you might be wondering what I mean by double Christmas trees! Please allow me to explain!
     A few days before Christmas, Mankie, my brother, and I went Christmas tree shopping. We couldn't find any trees, at all. It was a real disappointment until we left Walmart and passed by a tree tent. Excited, we turned around as soon as possible and went into the tree tent. It was a little bit of a downer because when we got inside all they had were four and five foot trees. The three of us thought long about it and, after a game of rock, paper, scissors between my brother and myself, we chose a five foot tree which was a little spare at the top. (I picked the tree.) We took it to Mankie's, my brother left, and Mankie and I set up the tree in the family room. Mankie wanted a bigger tree but a small tree was better than no tree at all. Eventually I left to go hang out with my friends Brandon, Sid, Cali, and Mike and that's when the double tree happened.

     We ate out at a pretty nice Chinese buffet then made our way to the Quarry shopping center because Mike needed to buy my Christmas presents. After we began to head out, I noticed another tree tent and promptly called Mankie. She said that Grampy wouldn't want to pay for another tree so I offered to buy one myself. It was really exciting, buying my very first Christmas tree and giving the little one to Brandon, Sid, and Cali. Mankie offered to reimburse me the forty dollars that I spent to buy the tree but I declined, it was purchased in the spirit of Christmas. Then next day we set it up and decorated it but we forgot to put a star on top. xD I know that picture over there isn't that good, but the tree was beautiful and there were so many presents under the tree that it felt like I was five again. I'll probably post more pictures from my mom's camera in another post so you all can see how great my Christmas was. But even before Christmas we had a odd situation in which we had another dog!

     Grampy named her Snowy. My grandparents found her running in between cars at the beginning of the street that they live on. At first, they weren't going to keep her but she just wanted to come home with them. Mankie to her to get vaccinated the next day and they took care of her as though she was their own. I was asked to take a photo of her in case she had an owner who wanted her back. (That's her over there to the right.) But before I could make any flyers, my brother had already found her owner one Craig's List and contacted him so that he could pick her up. Her real name is Chaine (Shy-ann) and she's a fourteen year old dog with a hearing problem. I was told that when her owner came to pick her up he was crying and very happy to have her back. Mankie was a little hesitant to let her go but she knew that if Suni had been found she would want him back, so Snowy was back home in no time. I hope that she's doing well and happy to be back with her owner.(:

     Besides all of that, I've been doing a lot of creative things for my bedroom that I want finished before Robert visits for spring break. One of them that I have almost finished is a garland of origami flowers, which can be found here. I made sixty-nine flowers and I have almost hung them all up on my string of lights. I simply used a needle and thread to link them together. It's a pretty easy decoration.


     I have two more projects for my room, one is a tree of cranes, as shown in the movie (500) Days of Summer (which I will post photos of as I get there) and the second is stenciling on a table lamp. Here are some pictures to help explain.

Here we have my table lamp that my mother got me for Christmas.

Pretty plain, huh?

This is my bedspread.

I thought that I could make my lamp cooler if I put the flowers on the lamp.

Good idea, right?

I tried to trace them with computer paper but it was too thick.

Instead, I used tissue paper.

I'll trace the tissue paper copies with a thicker paper so I can tape them onto the table lamp and then go around the edges with fabric paint that matches the room.

     This is my last post for the two-thousand and eleven year! I hope you all have a safe New Year's and I'll be looking forward to posting for you in two-thousand and twelve! Chou!